Help!!!

1207pm~just finish my class,reach main block,at learning lab7...sitting at 2nd row last place from the right...a cute girl is sitting the same row with me and but right now i dont have any mood for that man~why~?!i feel like crying and full of fear right now,but i know i need to hold it on,cause im the eldest and i need to be a role model for my sibling,and to prove to people that support me,or those that look down at me..i know its not easy but im struggling right now...A few question is in my mind right now~

Im in Help and i need help right now!!!!