family or akltg

If you where to ask me to choose between family or akltg,
i would definately say both,no matter what??just like what queenie ask me,how come your facebook add is all people from akltg 1??Ya,Because i would say,without Akltg,there wouldnt be the me now~well,honestly isnt those motivation thing,study skill that make me really push me far but is the enviroment~for the pass 16years i have been living in a family that really love me but didnt really know how to express it in a more effective way,and 1move of mum sending me there maybe is correct...cause i just cant imagine how am i gonna act like right now if i havent been there before...what i feel is i receive love there

Akltg provide me a place to learn,the very 1st thing would be my english,who am i gonna practice speaking english without getting humiliate if i didnt join akltg??next thing,leadership skills and communication skills,i have been isolate by school friends for a long time,and only act strong so that at least i can get to join those lala...and the Tj that always think he is a strong person because he have strong leadership skill just realize there is tons of things he can improve,example:what happen during August08 when i was the apd...and lots of reflection comes to my brain...and where else can you find such place to fail something for you to learn before you step into the society??
Why did i studying college right now??honestly if can,ill choose not to study anymore,but because of the enviroment of akltg,seeing everyone going to college,during camp,participants ask where did i study,how am i gonna answer??and because of all those example,preesure,thats the thing that makes me want to get into a college...
At here,i will not say all members of akltg i treat them as family(even for these catogory,i would choose not to response anymore if i need to,i dont like the feeling to lose a familybut ill do things that need to be done),some just best friends,some maybe even just hi-bye friends~not say that im giving excuses but this thing from Melvin(again someone from akltg)~the word faith/fate really effect me alot...and i apologize for not taking more effort...
At there,i feel more appreciated,never been look down,even if there is,because of the positive energy around,i dont feel the negative 1 at all...maybe is i keep going back to my comfort zone but as long as im getting something,i dont mind~
Knowing people from there let me learn lots of thing,and i get to taste lots kind of food,get to know more of hotels,get to travel to places i never and maybe wont travel if im still the old me...
Support from poeple,people that have different bloodline with you but somehow you feel that you guys are connected,as in saying god does not make you guys into geneticly brother or sister,but he did create this thing call fate that link you guys together and you guys can be brothers and sister fatefully...faithfully...and the very 1st person i dare to share right now,that he's gonna be my very best friend of my life time..Webster Kuhanason...(sorry,forget the last word,looking for it right now)..ya,Webster Kuhanason Kandiah~i wont say my appreciation here..but just to let you know if you 'tiba-tiba' come and read my blog...
At the same time,there is alos some of my brother and sister from akltg...i wont say who you are but ill do my best treat you the way i need to...

well,honestly,the reason why i type this post is,im not sure on a reflective mode or angry,or whatever,just that earlier i was really sad and angry of some person that i really treat as family~tears almost drop from my eyes,and im finding its hard to control...but after every words i type~i get to feel better and better...have to stop it now,just read back words and sentence that i type earlier,it just a mess...no arrangement at all...just simply cucuk~lol

But before i leave the computer,i shall finish my last words.I have to say that im not good in expressing my feeling and ill do my best to imporve as fast as possible,you may feel im sacarstic,i say that you are my brother,sister or whatever good friends but only call you when i need something...just that i have been condition this way fro many years,so jsut tell me anything you feel,most importantly,honest,ok??~and im sorry for whatever i did before to anyone(ya,talk is cheap.i shall take action,so,the next time,i meet you guys,i shall kiss you!!~lol)*happy again~=)

CNY Dinner~

Alright~wake up at 10am...study~need to 'wallup' all the textbook that i have been procrastinate not to finish.....

4pm,go Chen Chen Stationary(Tan Chin Tong) to buy battery for my calculator and a pocket file...who knows he tak buka,so drive further to Eng Hup...And the thing supprise me the most is that 1 battery from Energizer is only RM2.80 and yet i still get a discount from the taukeh niu??wao~i still thought it is like at least RM 5,or maybe more...i think i need to improve my sense of the electronics market...LOL...bought the pocket file,RM6,battery RM2.50.......=)

Get back home,draw this piece of not-sure-can-you-call artwork~for Amin...1 more sketching of the 1st and last(puii,not last..i mean previous) photo where we take together to go...
Happy Married Life~Amin!!

Evening,7.21pm,everyone was at outside...waiting for grandma..why??cause its tonight highlight~Mum side family reunion dinner at Manjing(the restaurant beside the park or public libary)!!why at having it only when its cho'6??long story back from years agoo ~=)~waiting~hey bro,you remember to wear your shoe,but where is your shirt??
~waiting~

Reach there around 7.45...i think...
~table for maids...2 table??WT~~Wao...more than 150 mum-side relatives in such a small restaurant...gonna get angpao till siao d...lol..but the sad case is...i didnt really go ask for ang pao..i dont like to do that...so only get like 6 or 7 from some of the aunties or uncle than come to our table,just wanna say thanks~
*30~40+ cousins.i think..only remember those at the 'Da Uh(big house)generation,have 10+new 'member'*

~During dinner.......
1st dish-Yee Sang
~know what??the waiter forget the 'Yee'(fish)..
~at last,the 'Yee' is here,raw fish...processing with lime juice,be patient,kay~~~~~~

2nd*everybodies favourite,main dish!!serious..people will yell or maybe fight to if some other table grab theirs*-Some sort of big crab where from my long time ago memory,the name start with 'Alaskan.......'..lol
~extra info~the moment the 1st crab being serve out,at least 1 people from 1 table will standup and yell at the waiter for them to bring the crab to their/our own table,this is how 'un-civilize' human being will become when infront of good/non-ordinary food...poor waiter/waiteress~lol
~big claw~...i love the 'dong hun' that they prepare to soaked up all the stocks~Yumm!!~
...and its just the 2nd dish,a lot of them is already yelling*emm,full d~*

3rd dish-steam garuopa...
~this fish is high in some sort of gel thingy,picky and love beauty ladies,learn to eat it(even though texture is a lil like fat pork),cause it can help you decrease the amount to go to your beauty saloon~

4th-Lobster..or should i say salad...more like an appetitezer,weird arrangement of the dishes...but i dont care,just eat..
~a couple of hours ago,this thing here is still moving,but now??move by people...poor thing~=P~i think i prefer the friuts(apple,melon and water melon)more than the meat~

5th-Abalone~with fork and knife(both of this you cant eat it but just mention cause you couldnt really use it too)
~a row of baby abalones,Q up to get eaten~WAHaha~evil laugh~~My baby........abalone..this picture is just to show the not-really-useful fork and knife~

~Extra 2...who wants??

6th-siew chu/barbeque piglet(webby,Ya tze...stay calm ok,thats not Aileen..lmao)
~Aileen..is that you??~

7th-Baked oyster~oh man,this really sucks...i rather eat the raw 1 with lime juice...taste better...maybe thats why i just take 1 and thats all....no more oyster for me tonight...~just serve~~'after sometime'~almost the same...

8th and last(dessert)~Sue kap gou in coconut(bird saliva??) and wo tip(chinese traditional 'food' with red bean filling)~suet kap gou~before serve...~Serve in lil bowl~its still very very very 'warm~look and taste like pork fat...LOL
~wo tip~im not sure anybody else eat it or not..but for me,i only take 1 piece~full la!!

Of course there is karaoke,just that i just snap a few shots of what i like~
~ya,2 of my baby cousin,3yrs old..they sing,and sing really well~for the courage only already worth full marks..~~just put it on because i like the effect~=P
And some special event too~this should be kept as a secret,just that to inform my future girlfriend,most probally i wont be bring you along..dont blame me,ok??is for your own good~

Ends at 11+...get back home,dinner end with the song..'大团圆'....

Type blog...now its time for me to pack up my stuff...going back to HR tomorow...;)~Now how am i gonna start??~

*next year,dad,mum,bobo,Ah Qian and Er Gu,Shi Ku,im gonna treat you guys the crab that i cant recall its name...hehe...Happy New Year to me~*

18

Afternoon,grab my textbook,study....15minutes later...yeah,still reading,but is a comic~Basket~FOCUS!!You still got 3textbook to finish...
Evening,while studying,check out my notes online...end up get on msn and have some bloody 'rated conversation'~till 9.30...what a waste of time..
~=P

Fetch my babies...whole process spend like 30minutes include travel,clean the tray,bowl,fold the cage...etc

Get back, imediatly get back to study again...after 1 hour...rest my brain(*i know its an excuse again*),watch Nick Vijucic and Russell Peter video clip on youtube.com...

Emm,time to study...bye~=)

*discipline is doing things that you dont like but it benefits you?true and i need to discipline myself right now!!

~seconds before i click on 'publish post',the electricity....walao...luckily got auto save~

Jobless=)

For today,didnt do much,more of having fun...

Wake up quite late.3pm,watch 'Beautiful girl' from Astro Channel 702,quite a nice movie~=)

Send Bobo to his friends house,go Tong Lee,bring my babies out for a walk...went to Mr Wong house when it starts to rain,we talk till the rain almost stops just then i leave...And ya,today Sasha grab away a piece of Bah Kua from my hand~#%&*!...lol

9pm,fetch Bobo,then Er Gu and Shi Ku and together with Ah Qian,5 of us we have dinner at Pizza Hut...
~Oh my,paying price of 3 pizza but get to taste something more like 3piece of toast~

10.30pm..After meal,bring everyone to Dong Chan since none of us been there before,from the very day it started~and this year,im not gonna volunteer....Bo Eng la~!!=P...
And after let them down,i actually go to Cheng Tai house and fetch him,just then we go Dong Chan together.Lol..And Cheng Tai say that my driving skill is not bad,just that a bit 'Hiong' and he is scared...lol..is that a compliment or what??~this year is the ox year,how can i didnt post anything of an ox or a cow...so,this is for you>a dutch lady cow asss......LOL~(Picture taken from Dong Chan:when i take this photo,places around did have the shit smell...haha)
~the Guanyin~every year samething nia...
~look like Lego right??~

Leave at 11.50pm...Go Tong Lee to feed my babies 1st...and Yeah~at last...they dont look like 2days ago where they look like don't have any appetite and is eating really slow...relief~*phew!*

Go back,get back to room...watch...BORAT from Youtube.com...lol...quite funny...must watch must watch!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFP-MktgOKU
(this is one of the video(24:29minutes)and do have shorter one,just type the word 'Borat' in your search engine-and for this video,9:40minutes,18:30minutes and 20 minutes is my favourite part of the clip~LMAO)

Emm,nothing else to do,thats the thing that drive me to type out this post...lol...since finish d,got to sleep d la.....hope that tomorow i get to send 'dia' the slides...wish me luck~Nightzzzzz~~(reminder:tomorow night... go youtube.com to search for Nick Vujicic and Russell Peter (a guy where i always remember his name by the name of a dog,Jack Russel...no offense,just linking system=D~))

Test in school vs real life

Emm,both of my babies is staying at Tong Lee for this pass few days...need to travel and bring them food,let them out for a run...Not sure am i correct or not but Er Ku,Shi Ku and dad seems to be happier with them around...even though they tend to look very worried or scared,but they just keep feeding them,especially dad...lol...and i believe the longer they stay at Tong Lee,the more they will get spoilt~!!But honestly ,feel more comfortable when let them out at there compare with grandma house...maybe of ...who knows??.....
Today,spend almost a day to make a slide show,downloading songs,planning,searching for the perfect photo,make the polka love background manually...hope 'you' will like it... Night time,topup rm5 at an Indian CD shop(cause CNY,and most of the HP buisness is run by chinese)who knows 2 hourse later,they send me another RM5...lucky right??And during night time,get to see my 'online heng tai'...again,after 2months,and we play texas holdem till 3.30am...and when ask to help me check out any mistake of the slides...send d cannot read pulak~then need to answer call...Walao...ignore me~!!

*being leave alone*,study...since exam is at next tuesday...look back at my notes,things i need to do within this whole week,then search for info half way~this is where i am right now...OhMy....just realize it...need to continue my studies and revision...Chaoo..

*2009-Score full marks in exam,train hard to be a member of Help Basketball team,become SCP coach,Get (car,laptop,house,dog,girlfriend,video camera),Spend more time with family...*

*pray and pray~get lots of money after CNY..cause gonna get myself a laptop next week~say YEAH E~~!!*=)

CNY Eve 09~moo

Wao~father cow year~moo..lol
And thanks Rossie to help me to send wishes to all the 'singaporean'..and Faris to the 'Malaysian'...lol

This year is just simply fantastic man~cause for the reunion lunch(ya.we normaly have reunion lunch,not dinner),we have 1 more new family member...cause Zhi Ko marry d...lol
And for today~i bring along Sasha and Judy...but they need to stay in the cage since the 2 kids and Biao Sao 2(Zhi Ko wife) is afraid of dogs...hehe

~Judy~

~see a kid behind 2 adults(Zhi Ko and Biao Sao 2)??,thats my idea..easy right...lol...(the most dangerous place is the safest place-TJ war tactic)...nahh,you will never understand~

After lunch,Ah Qian and the 2kids(Xin Yi and Kai Xin)are playing hide and seek~but in the end,everyone join in...lol..ya,include adults,but of course they didnt hide themself la..they just hint the kids or maybe help to hide them~and i think im the smartest...lol...cause i use the easiest method to hide Kai Xin and it takes the longest time for Xin Yi to find her...HAHAHaha...

Everyone is having a great time...this is the first time ever i see everyone is enjoying~i bet this year would be a fantastic year
~MOOOOooooo

4pm~send dad to give some gift to the house beside dads oil palm estate~cause dad say that we usually use their bridge to get into our estate~so as a manner,give people some gift lo~emmm,true also....hehe

Get back~mandi~EI,my Ang Mo cousin is back to Malaysia d...lol...share with you guys his photo i taken last year and just now...
~2009~now
~2008~

thats all,need to go take a bath d....see ya~mooo...........

"playing the song:'i am cow' mix with some new year songs"....LOL..=P

Happy Chinese New Year

Go to office at 2.30pm..reach there at 3o'clock..

Draw this before i leave~so:_ ~i draw this~

And at 7pm,Ah xuan jie jie come and fetch me and we have dinner together~and thank soo much~

Things really get better~new year;new hope,new weapon~lol~LAW of Attraction~

Birthday~

Happy Birthday,Ash...~!!

i think your the 1st person that i wish that occupied a new post~dammit(joke,OK!!)~lol..anyway,all the best and dreams came true~again,Happy Birthday and have a sweet 16~=)

What ??

10.15pm,back from ISKL,have McD for dinner till 11.58pm..

And for the night,its really hot in the room,so went down to level 1...lots of foreign student is watching news of the speech from Obama..i think at that moment im the only Malaysian..after a while,read the english artices in the English textbook that i borrow from Omar...Sleep around 3.30am..

And Dammit~when i wakeup in the morning,its already 11am..i miss my class man...this kind of thing shouldnt happen to me...just asking myself,what did i really want...feel guilty~it just complicated~

And during lunch time~call Jian Sheng,'im at midvalley'...call Wesley.'I'm at Midvalley'..call Mj,'I'm at Midvalley'...WT...any special event at MV??I'm just looking for some 1 to have lunch with...

Err..some1 is having there class at L.space 8 right now..got to 'run'..B...

Next time would be better~=P

On track~

After been through yesterday training,i realize that im still got lots of space for improvement man...Especially during 'suicide'...with all the sprinting and change of direction,it almost 'kill' me...and im at the bottom 2 within 16 men...WT~

After dinner,while watching Jackie Chan movie at Level 1,HR,get to meet a new friend...end up talking with him till 12+(more of sports and he is a good motivater too)..

This morning,wake up at 9am...'Class'....and before english class start,get to know that my macroeconomics lecturer(Dr.Endelko Simic)kena rob and get slash at his limbs and neck~WT~even until he need get into the emergency ward,i just cant imagine how serious is it~..why is there people in this world that willing to do that just for money man...even though most of the time when im in his class,i dont really understand what is he sharing,but what i can confirm is he's definately a good guy and he dont deserve that kind of treatment,or should i say nobody deserve it,even is a murderer or prisoner....~

Didnt know who woud replace his class,but what i know is that his class for this week is cancel
and hopefully there would be a replacement lecturer after chinese new year...and for Dr.Simic,hope that you could recover as soon as possible,and when you recover,please do your best to correct youe accents too...lol,or else im having a hard time understanding what are you sharing..=)

Lets together make earth a better place to live~

1 more step`

Saturday night~carmens house warming party~thanks for the night man~Enjoy it alot!!+Thanks my other 2 heng tai Joey + Webb for the ride~LOL..=)

Sunday~wake up at 8 to go TTDI.High light of the day is I get to take speed reading session in Alvin's SCP class..Wait!!~and Bryan SCP class too...thanks guys,for giving me this chance.this experience and i appreciate and enjoy it...at the same time,i believe i need to improve on my time management part and prepared myself with more 'weapons aka example'...lots of thing can be improve but overall,i found myself having a great time for the day...LMAO~ya,and during dinner have grilled chicken(thought i not supose to eat meat??) with rice+1 dessert that cost me RM9...price okok lo...and during night time,get to use MJ laptop to online,chat with triple Y(enjoy having conversation with you,thanks)...and this person,Miss Toh aka trainer aka china girl aka singaporean(at last~got your news again,thought you stay at China d)~lol

Monday.10-2pmclass,2.30lunch..3pm deal with the residence management...get to L.Space7,prepare something for group project...and time passes sooo fast.its 4.50pm..got to go,time for basketball training~Chaoo........

Help team:here comes your Bulldog 10~!!

Help!!!

1207pm~just finish my class,reach main block,at learning lab7...sitting at 2nd row last place from the right...a cute girl is sitting the same row with me and but right now i dont have any mood for that man~why~?!i feel like crying and full of fear right now,but i know i need to hold it on,cause im the eldest and i need to be a role model for my sibling,and to prove to people that support me,or those that look down at me..i know its not easy but im struggling right now...A few question is in my mind right now~

Im in Help and i need help right now!!!!

Day 3 HELP~!!

its my day3 at help~things are going well

Happy 2009