Fear

'Tianjun,today got sport check;keep your bird properly'~MJ.This is what Mj wake me up from my bed and told me few minutes earlier.I get up and tell Mj 'Ill tell them the bird is use for science experiment'(But it is already a pass,yess,i did not lie but its also not being honest,i feel kinda bad of how come i have that kind of thought),Get some water,and look outside..Pheww~the management have gone...Get online to create this post...

I was wondering when we are having room sport check earlier and I'm having fear of getting caught??~Damn,Why should i still need to have the kind of fear..i pay so much for the room,and yet I don't feel having much privacy or personal space.(I really wanna move out to some where else cheaper and can allow me have a pet~)

Well,this also reminds me of I want to set my blog into private into a long time d..Still cant figure it out..Is there anyone out there that is reading my blog right now that can help me with this??
(Someone did tell me before,blogging will make a guy go 'niang',but I just don't care right now,cause its the best place for me to release myself in this place called KL)

Sitting in front of the blank(View of my desk top actually~The cactus)reflect and recall what have i done since yesterday night.

Morning~MC..Damn!again..=(

For the night,I'm just not in the right mood..

Didn't sleep till morning 8+am,where at Level1 together with Weiliang,Jeff,Lala Carmen,Cynthia,Vinson,and 2 dude that i didn't know his name(At least with lots of people,it makes me feel 'Ok')...We chat,we go Ali Maju,and they play Dota together(I will never play that game).And i pulak get online and play some music.On facebook,6+am,and from the chat box,guess who i met??~Its Melody!!!~XD..damn miss her wei..After that we msn...Btw shes gonna come back at this end of May,I ngam ngam got holiday,maybe gonna give her a suprise at the airport.People,who's with me??!!~=)

Later,suppose to have my favourite game~basketball at 1 of my favourite spot..But just change my mind..gonna go home today..tumpang Lala Carmen dad's car..Packing up now..chao...

And before I leave~Today is my smart,different parents and stay at Melaka,study at Singapore brother birthday,I guess most of the Akltg~ian would already know who is he,Yup,~is Mark,Mark Seow Wei Lun...=)

~Happy Birthday Bro!!!~=D






*Every time when I get to pass by your house,the best part would be I'm praying hard to get chance to see you walk outside.And at that very moment,my life is full of hope and it makes me feel good.But this thing never happen,now,you didn't even wanna talk nicely to me,or should i say don't want to talk at all.I miss the old time~I miss you,I want to talk to you~

Confession of a Dog.aholic

First message in the morning:Cynthia~she screwed her presentation

Afternoon:
Class>Office>Basketball Court(Didnt play,cause the court is too wet)
Again,thanks Webby for sending me back~=)

Night:
Movie at Midvalley~Confession of a Shopaholic
~Rated??Just know that it is a comedy.Didnt really watch it,well not say that its a bad movie,just that most of the time,I'm just thinking of her.So cant really rate it~sorry.But do enjoy thinking of how to love her~LOL..a bit siao right??spend money sitting in a dark room thinking of a girl..XD~


Together with MJ,lala Carmen and Cynthia...and of course together with a big bottle of full cream milk and a large pop corn.
(Guys,thanks for the night,thanks for be with me when I need someone.)

Back at HR at 11+pm.Someone trapped in the lift~Need da help from firemen...
~Phew..luckily not me...



Last message of the day:'Not sure who~013-3311**1'~'Dude im in 4 the outing'...




*I will do whatever it takes to bring you to a movie,but are you willing to go out with me??
*I feel pain when I need to be cool in front of you,that is not the true me,but this is what controling me from being feeling more pain when i cant see you.

Heart Arrow More Heart Budgie

Continue of yesterday...


7.10pm~Run against the U82~At last~Win win situation...=D

7pm+(Not sure what time)...Reach TTDI,have a walk around the park,lay on the playground for a while,manatau got 2 uncle pass by..Can heard what they are whispering softly with each other..'Phew,though the boy there is a dead body....etc..'~and can hear that they start to talk about did they see any dead body before~Wao..like that also can start a topic.....XD

7.55pm~Go office to meet Carol...Nothing to do actually..but since promise d...then promise shall remain as a promise....then meet up with Webster~Just back from gym,jog and dinner with Jv Ma...Not gonna hug you bro...smelly...lol...
-And sorry for not joining you for basketball games...I'm wearing a jeans today...cant really move...=D
!!!Who know just after we talk for like 5-10minutes...MJ call...he need room key,the guard doesn't have....he need to get something from the room~So...cant company Carol that need to wait for Stuart till 10.30pm...Sorry Carol.....Cause MJ need my help...~Tatara~!!!Tj to the rescue...

+And thanks to Webby too,for giving me a ride on his bike...and thanks for the fried rice...Its nice!!!love the salted fish...

And ya..know what,when i reach back to HR...MJ is in the room d~He said that the guard get something to help him to open the door d..He say he did call me but i didn't answer(But when you called,I'm already reach G.floor of HR la..lol)..never mine...that's what friends are for,right??=)..sorry for not leaving the key at the guard too,cause needa chase the U82,or else if i miss it,gonna wait for another half and hour d...

And Ya~!!Now day beside Fate and Faith,I got another new belief..Its call~~~~*Drum roll~Chiang!!!~Its KARMA-What goes around comes around..=)

End the night with doing some chemistry experiment in the room..(Did watch WWE Raw from 11.12-11.26am la..lol)



TODAY:_

Wake up at 8.30am.Go Giant to buy some food colouring.Go to KPD Block D(Lab at level 4) to finish the Bouncing ball...who knows once I reach..lab need to be closed for a while..so go and wait down stairs...Meet Syazwan~he told me Lina is back at Malaysia..Dammit~Lina,Balik pun tak inform ku la~=(...lalala~
Continue experiment at 10am.Pheww~at last,the bouncing ball is working...prepare a few..
And we and now ready for the start of Science fair...

~Science Fair~...Explain and present to people about our bouncing ball...2/5 of the group..only me and Mehdi is there..the rest beside Hazim appear for few minutes because busy with another Bio project that he is presenting..nobody else appear and help us...But I realize I actually enjoy it..and i actually prepare something kinda interesting with the extra corn starch...*Let me know if wanna know what it is...XD...

But in the end,we are the only group didn't get evaluated,cause after standing for a few hours..I just move around..and at that very moment,Mehdi also leave..so when the judge pass by,nobody there..so no marks lo..but never mine la..as long as we get our project marks..for the competition??we know how much effort we put in then okay d..It just a competition..

And Main Story1 of the the day...

I get a Budgerigar as my very first pet at KL~YEAH!!

Presenting my lil beauty~

~Unnamed yet~

~photo by MJ Tan

~MJ actually ask me to keep in the room~siao..room soo small..gonna get a place for it..

4+pm..Basketball training~today super low form..Get tired after 2 hours..I need to re-train my stamina d...

Night~8pm..wait for lala Carmen and Cynthia at level1.Talk with MJ and MJ's Christine that is around...write a poem..half way..the 2 appeared..then we take a cab to OU

OU~damn malu...keep looking for something from Nichii in Kitschen for 1 whole hour,dammit..lol...even the staff also help me..really thanks guys...sorry for the mistake...and ya,remember I can actually make it from Lg to F within 1minutes...cause of the force where the shop almost close d...lol...
~did not manage to check out places that we gonna have lunch during the outing..
+didn't get to buy any games,fruits and shirts...no time..spend too much time in Kitschen hunting for something...LOL
+No movies like we planned yesterday~Confession of a Shopaholic..-.-Cause Cynthia needa go back to prepare her presentation,a lil potong stim,but for studies..ok lo...=)
(Anyway,thanks for teman.ing me out)

After that,take a cab to Desa Kiara.Lala Carmen's friend's,Ah Kim-heard that is a national Ping Pong player..drove us to the place I get my only meal of the day at PJ19 aka 888...Order fried kuey teow,1 sugar cane and 1 soya bean...XD..

Reach back at Hr around 11+pm...grab my lappy,extension,sleeping bag..etc from the room,go to level...now typing this post(1.46am d)..tired day...Goodnight la..Tata...ZZzzzz~






*I did not expect any change at this moment,as long as you are happy,I'm happy..and sorry that I cant help you to full fill all you wish for in 1shot,cause I think you need to appear to test it out first~Waiting for the day...=)After weeks,TJ is smiling right now...
*I wish you can help me to name my baby budgie...=)I really love animals but I love you even more...NO animals,still can live,No you*___*,no life...Dog is my life,but I'm willing to give up rearing a dog if you don't like...*words from the heart...

Waiting For Your Call

YOUR CALL

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)


~Secondhand Serenade~Damn!!The lyrics really show how I feel,I still thought I wrote this myself...XD



*Yupp~I realize chance was given~I'm gonna get them for you tomorrow~LOL

Ultimate Succes Formula

Now playing:Canon(Ya..the name just canon..not the brand but the song)

click on picture to have clearer view

~A USF created earlier..a love USF??...sipeh blurr...gonna redo soon..~

Just back from sending my laundry,beside loving her,mood kinda random right now..


~Thanks to elly~phant...i get to practice my reaction poem....lol...Like I mention to elly-phant earlier,just wish that 'she' will be there when im poeming...And the siao elly-phant ask me to tell her..WT...My question is~HOW??if only she is willing to talk to me ...

~My 'secret' effing best friend BF that i feel like bo song me msn with me for 2hours yesterday??!And he actually advise me to use some tactics to get her...I was wondering,'Should or shouldnt I??'...nahhh...i just wanna treat her with my most sincere heart.Say no to Tactic..TAK NAK!!

~Team Leader say that now days my dribbling skill is better than some of the main school player d...=D

~5pm+..MJ call me,he forget to bring his key..ask me to leave the room unlock...(But of course i won do that)

random...random...so...check out my files...this is what i get..

Photos from IAG March 2009~DA Soulja list.East vs Weat,guess who win??

From the East~

We have:_

~Aaron Nair aka Soulja Chicken~Mandy Toh Marn Yee aka Soulja Money

~Ellysha Nur aka Soulja Darling

~Tam Vi Vian aka Soulja Clam

~Carmen Yong aka Soulja Musicman

~Lim Su Wee aka Commando Milk

and of course..

~TianJun aka Clerk aka mission creator~=D

~Damn...Soulja Kemberley..you needa improve on your timing..Take my photo at my sleepiest time??+still wearing a tee-shirt la..ROFL

and~
From the West,

We have:_

~Bryan Cheong Seng Kit aka Soulja Giant

~Tracy Ng Shan Ci aka Soulja Klang Gal

~Jia Yun aka Soulja JY

~Izzat aka Soulja Baki

~And last of all....

~Kimberley Ng Hui Een aka Soulja Kemberley

~Photos of coach intro slides

Tons of sweet memo from the last camp...mission game,NCA's 'fight'(means the spirit) and working with each other,blind fold games,birthday party,a night in the club with DJ TJ..etc...

more from other files~~Remember??I guess only I will...



Chun Chun 6pm~Just like Cinderella,everthing nice just dissapear at this time..
Back to real life..bye bye memory...

~Gtg..tata...



*'Sweet,sweet,sweeter',another random poem i made just for you...Did i got the chance to show you??
*Damn miss...how can i improve this situation,lemmi know...

At last~Fall for you

29March20909,9.20pm~Now playing:Secondhand Serenade_Fall for You





Post this post using my new lappy~=)

Upgrading all the program i needed right now~Cause I know that when back to KL,the line gonna sucks~

Stuff that need to get and do when back to KL~

-A pair of shoe(Midvalley would be a good spot,i guess)
-A cooler,a keyboard protector and a external hard drive for my lappy.
-A memory card for my phone(Broken during IAG..1 split to 2,is that consider a good news??)
-A few pair of socks.
-A bag.
-A haircut!!
-And maybe some pirated DVD and games~XD....ssshhhhh~
-Contact my chemistry and macroeconomics group mate for all the assignment and project thingy.
-Plan and contact people for the outing.
-Prepare for my test.
-Upload the camp video and those NCA flag online
-Look for a house to move.
-To train basketball,to have more man on man practice.
-To continue love her~XD


~Wao...tons of stuff to do..the public transport is just wasting too much of my time...but luckily now i can do more stuff d...since i have my new 'Sasha'(Sasha=Help mate..this thingy here will never take over my baby Sasha in my heart...=D) here...Working out for a better day...TATA...





*I wish...I could sing *____*,I could bring him in front of you,anything...as long as you are happy....Wanna see you smile,wanna hear you laugh...wanna..just wanna....=)

Test of Love

*Formula:Weird+Weird=Special



Question 1~By using less than 20words,describe how much you love her*______*~insert name

Answer:(I choose not to answer,because no number in this world that is great enough to show my love to her.)


Question 2:Random~(So my choice is to...)

You and I,
Just like a pair of American Cocker Spaniel,
Different gender,
Different character,
But no matter what happen,
Fate bring two of us to be together.

I,
would describe myself as a Doberman,
A beast from the outside,
Inside stays a gentleman,
I might look fierce,
Evil,
Some even say I'm the son of the devil,
But I'm loyal,
And in my life,there would only be one
owner,
partner
and only person that im willing to be her runner.

Now i would say,
I'm just like an Elk hound,
Tallest among the world,
Hunting the prey in the grey.
In the forest looking for my own way,
But some times moving alone,
No matter what happen,
There is just nobody there to share,
loneliness,
It drives the beast to crazyness.
I just wish~
One day,
Just one day,
You will be there to break the curse.

Now,
A Lhasa Apso can be use to explain the situation,
At the same time to show my determination,
a small dog that is rare and precious,
Just like the the Island that full with love story,
Mauritius.
Same thing to a Lhasa Apso,
can have only one mission,
is to to love,
to beloved,
by the only person.

You,
Just like a Yorkshire Terrier,
In a show ring,
cute,pretty,and seems to be extremely fragile,
This drive my mind even more miles,
To hold on you,
To care,
To share,
And to love you,
And understand of how you feel.

To me,
You are like a Newfoundland,
When i trap in the deserted island,
You are the one that give me hope and care,
You are the one that I trust since that very moment.
At last,i found my another half,
I will appreciate,
And do whatever it takes,
To fight to win a spot in her heart...


TJ'09




~THE END~







*Pimples??Even if others care of how you look like,even if one day you gonna be fat and ugly.Just to let you know,at least you still have me,because I love who you are,not how you look like.
*To love will be continue~

30minutes

~The 30minutes is of calling you yesterday night is the happiest moment i ever had~

Yesterday?basketball till~9+pm,dinner is 2 pack of instant noodle,3star fruit,1 plate of rice,a fried egg and some ketchup~after that~*Ehem~Just to listen to your voice make me feel addicted...lol...(I guess from now on ill need to change my selection of movie,from action and comedy to love story..=)..yess i can do it!!!)...end the night with~Play 'High School Musical3'(A disney movie that look like Bollywood movie) but didnt watch at all then sleep d...Damn Pek Cek..hahaha

Morning~wake up~Breakfast>1 starfruit,2 pau...and here we go!!!>Qing Ming(Not sure whats the name in English)

7am~3.30pm~5 people,4 different spot,3rd month of the year,2 kids from the family in 1 whole day...

After that,as usual,head to the popia store that we will go every year...order 8 popia,2 soya bean milk,1 chicken rice,1 hongkong style poridege,some yong tau foo...Back at Banting at 5pm+

~Today,i was inspired!!~POEM.ING!!!(Upload tonight...dinner first...lalala)




*Improving myself~To be loved~I shall change,to be better,to avoid doing things that will hurt you;stronger,to protect you from others hurting.Power of love is being acumulate to 'Ha-me-ha-me-ha' at the proper timing,i will prove to you its worth to choose me=)

Choices??

4.30pm,watch~Pride(a story of a few rookie swimmers~nice movie)

5pm~raining,pack da bag...take a bus to the office and hand up the report...

~At last...Found my white Reebok Tee when looking for a box at the condo!!

After that...~BASKETBALL TIME!!!~YEAH!!

Play~Rest for 1ominutes~dinner(Ying Yong+coke at a restaurant nearby)~Play again~till??12.07am..WT..a bit siao...but fun...(play with a few China guy.And one of them actually send me home...=) just to say thanks)

_look at the window,lights off,have a good rest~_

Back to HR...MJ is watching movie...join.ed...eat da char siew pau i bought earlier...together with some hot milo with oats~X)...~syok!!



Q1-Going back tomorrow,feel excited??Pack your stuff d??leaving at what time??plan??
Q2-Found a bungalow nearby school,if you move in,you gotta have dogs~Happy??Move??
Q3-Should or shouldnt prepare the event/gathering??
Q4-Ready for the final??Sem gonna end in few weeks time~
Q5-Is she the right one??~This one can confirm~YESSSS!!!!
Q6-What time izit right??tomorow no class??tak payah tidur??~XD..OK la...-.-


3.22am,time to sleep~type this post because...feel like typing it??....ok...gonna sleep d..tata...Zzz~






*Im freaking piss,i dont feel like talking anymore,but i still choose to response,because i understand that kind of feeling,it doesnt feel good. And i dont want you to been through this like me~i want to make you happy everyday~the world need 'Forgiveness' and love...
*I damn miss my lil cutie pie!!!~A**O....

Happy Birthday Dad!!!